What does contentment mean to you? It's a fairly common term, but I've found that we don't all define it in the same way. In my view, contentment has nothing to do with WHAT you have, or don't have. Contentment is an attitude we can choose to have, or not to have. I choose to be content.
Maybe you're thinking, “Wait a minute. This whiny girl with all her chronic pain is saying she's content? I don't buy it. She writes all this poetry about pain and heartache. Complains about homeschooling. That is NOT what I call content.” And you're right. But that happens to be exactly my point. I HAVEN'T been choosing contentment. I HAVE been wallowing in self-pity. I'm done now. Going to try to be done now.
In my A post, A New Beginning, I mentioned that the past year or so has been rough. The slide began with me being canned from my dream job, and as I sit here writing, I have the flu. In between, I had whooping cough (with almost a month, total, of bedrest). I had complications from whooping cough. I tore the labrum in my hip. I found out that I need that arthritic hip replaced, not scoped. My grandmother died. My dad was diagnosed with Parkinson's.
But in 2010, I also went on a cruise. My relationship with my sons changed dramatically (that would be the result homeschooling.) I was able to be there for a friend during her major life-changing crisis. I went on a road trip to my favorite vacation spot, Annapolis, MD. I went to the beach, the same beach where we honeymooned. I became a blogger. I am able to knit again. I got to go on three separate snowboarding trips with my boys, and my Best got to join us for one of those. The Engineer and I established a REAL date night, where we LEAVE THE HOUSE once a week. Even got two weekends in a row without the boys, so as a result, a trip to Glenwood Springs. And we finally, finally, finally, paid off our last credit card.
Those two different descriptions of this past year make for a sharp contrast. Seems painfully obvious which description is more pleasant. Yet they both are an accurate depiction of the events. So this day I am choosing contentment, and when someone asks me, “So how was your 2010?” I'm going to say, I got to go on a cruise...
How about you? Are you content?
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